I have this feeling that you were meant to be in my life. and I'm starting to miss you.
i saw you today at ravenwood sprinting the football fields and I had never thought about you untill I saw you today and it just brought up some feelings.
I dont know what im doing with myself right now.
ive been sleeping around and going out and chasing people who just want to sleep with me and its just starting to get to me. i dont know why im doing this because its not making me any happier
im actually really sad.
i dont know why i couldnt accept you the last time we talked. i dont know why i couldnt stop talking to guys. i guess i was just too obsessed with the freedom and attention i had and i didnt want to let that go. but ive gotten nowhere with that.
i dont know
you just mean alot to me even when your out of my life.
just wanted you to know that
its just... college getting closer and closer, its so much more real. there is a chance you may not see me again after this summer. and ive always known that i just never wanted to tell you that because i didnt want you to give up on me. i wanna see you and i feel like im going to regret the time we dont spend together.