1 year later since we dated and I still love you.
similar to our past, this website is full of great memories.
I'm 100% so happy your back in my life mitchell.
December 11th you decided to message me back. Your first message may have been "Ur an asshole" but i cant even explain the smile on my face. Never have I been so happy to be insulted.
Words cant even begin to explain how much happier I am today now that I can talk to you again. I think that year benefited us in allowing us to grow as individuals . After our growth , our want for eachother still leads me to believe we were meant to be in eachothers lives.
I'm so happy.
I love you.
p.s. I'm not going anywhere >:-)
I have this feeling that you were meant to be in my life. and I'm starting to miss you.
i saw you today at ravenwood sprinting the football fields and I had never thought about you untill I saw you today and it just brought up some feelings.
I dont know what im doing with myself right now.
ive been sleeping around and going out and chasing people who just want to sleep with me and its just starting to get to me. i dont know why im doing this because its not making me any happier
im actually really sad.
i dont know why i couldnt accept you the last time we talked. i dont know why i couldnt stop talking to guys. i guess i was just too obsessed with the freedom and attention i had and i didnt want to let that go. but ive gotten nowhere with that.
i dont know
you just mean alot to me even when your out of my life.
just wanted you to know that
its just... college getting closer and closer, its so much more real. there is a chance you may not see me again after this summer. and ive always known that i just never wanted to tell you that because i didnt want you to give up on me. i wanna see you and i feel like im going to regret the time we dont spend together.
ok i don't know what your gunna think about this but I've thought about it a lot and we should be friends. like i wanna hang out still. but no kisses or anything. i think after all this time we owe it to ourselves to be happy. and were happy when we hangout.and if we kiss it happens but in the end were not together. were just having fun together. i just dont want you out of my life and i think being friends could be a good step for us. i probaly sound insane. but i can do it. i just wanna have fun ya know and your legit my bestfriend. no drama or bullshit, just friends.
in the situation that you say this isnt a good idea, i just want you to know that i have thought about it and im sad but at this point in time i do not wish to be in a relationship again. i think thats why im handling this better because , after this rough month , i realized the whole time that i didnt want a relationship any longer also. you think otherwise but, i think your in my life for a reason. i think your still gunna be in it in the future. so i wanna keep you close to me. but if you truly do disagree with me on that then ill get over it . but a relationship for us isnt the best for us right now, i agree with that and ive accepted that. i just want a friend . your the only person in tennessee who knows everything about me and knows all my interests and the person i have the most fun with. i just dont wanna lose that friendship.
in the situation you say this is a good idea, lets go get food. as friends.
this is my official post.
thank you for the memories.
thanks to you, my new years goal is to work out everyday.
and be single.
ill miss you.
if i ever need to vent ill probably type it on here still. so you can choose to read or choose not to.
no i am not ok.
do not ask me how im doing because that is the answer.
do not text me if you have nothing to say.
i had people texting me all day saying "soo you and mitchell broke up, i could tell by his snapchats and shit last night "
luckily i removed you as a friend on snapchat so i cannot watch your stories.
all i know is i should be mad because thats rude.
so yes i am mad.
this feels weird but i know its best for both of us. i just wanted to say, i'm going to wku next semester, so im leaving in a month. i just feel like i have to tell you because im so used to telling you everything.
im really sorry on how we ended, im sorry i wasnt good enough, im sorry i was boring. i can honestly say i didnt see this coming ever but im happy you can be free now. and you can be happy without me. it feels so weird knowin that its all over but i guess its for the best.
im gunna miss all our fun times.
like going out to eat with you, and going to the movies, and cuddling in your bed, and playing video games together, and walking around the mall, and going to get ice cream with josh, and our trips we went on, and all the kisses we shared, and laughing non stop together, and just being together. its crazy knowing that i dont have that to look forward to anymore. that its all over. 2 years of being bestfriends is just gone. but im happy it happened. now i have all these fun times to look back on even though i dont have you anymore. but im happy becuase i know were both gunna be happy with some time. :)
i love you mitchell. ill still wear your necklace as a reminder of the happiest times ive ever experienced.
ps. if your feeling down, read my old posts. i did and it made me so happy :)
i love you so so so much. i have this gut feeling though that you need to tell me something. I was gone for over a week and you didnt say you missed me once. you didnt say i love you, maybe one time. you didnt say you wanted to see me when i got back. i dont know , i know your busy. but looking back at our messages even a month ago you didnt act like this. i just wanna know whats going on. and when i asked if you could hangout tomorrow night you said "probablly" ... which is weird becuase if you were excited to see me like you used to be you wouldve been completely down for it like you used to act. i dont know whats gotten into you but i have to know. and you used to not like girls pictures. NOW you like everyones, even the girls you have hooked up with before. thats not a big deal but its just different because you wouldnt have done that before. you used to think about how i felt. im not complaining anymore tho. this will be the last time and well talk tomorrow night. but somethings not right between us and we both know that.
i remember when you liked to text me and call me and tell me what your doing and asking me questions and telling me how much you love me and miss me . I miss when you put effort in our relationship and send me cute texts reminding me that you were thinking of me . I miss when you would ask me my opinion and I miss most how you cared about my opinion . And I miss when you used to text me before you went to a party asking me if it was okay and sayin you'll be thinking about me the whole time even though there were girls there , and I miss when even if your phone died you'd get someone at the party's phone to tell me that it had died and everything was okay and you were still thinking about me . I miss cute goodmorning texts . I miss being able to tell you what I was doing and how I felt at any given moment . I miss the freedom to say whatever I want without worrying about wether or not you were gunna break up with me . I miss the times you asked me to hangout everyday . I miss your need for me . I miss my boyfriend that was ok with his 500 followers on Instagram , didn't post pictures of girls and like there pictures , that snapchatted me in bed as soon as he woke up , that payed attention to me , that would tell me to meet him somewhere just to kiss him , that would always seem to be happy and would pay no attention to his phone around me . I don't know what has changed with you :( but I'm going to sleep crying every other night bc I'm worried . Maybe I know that things aren't going to workout . Or maybe I want so bad for you to care . For you to not have to try to care , just care naturally . Maybe I want so bad for things to be better bc I love you more than anything and I don't want to have thoughts about things ending . I don't want to convince myself to end this relationship . I took a shower and I thought about that a lot . In my heart I think your the one . But I can't feel like this everyday . I'm depressed now. because of you and fear of the unknown . You've been making me unsure about the future and I'm not sure I like where its headed bc I know if I end things it might be the worst mistake I ever make . If you read back on our posts our relationship was amazing . What changed ? It's not me , it's you.
I just miss you okay.
i love when my boyfriend dosnt text me for hours and then I see him on all my friends snapchats at a party and he can't take 5 seconds to tell me that he's there. Fucking love it . BEST BOYFRIEND EVER .
you just told me your leaving for New Years and I'm crying a lot . I told you I didn't care because I don't want you to feel bad . But I can't stop crying . This was supposed to be special . I waited for this with you for 2 years . But I'm ok . I'm used to it now .
So we've been fighting a lot. You haven't been putting effort in our relationship and you also haven't been communicating with me. Which I get not texting all the time but when you go the whole day without talking to me its really upsetting. I know I keep complaining about it but i hate it soo much, its so annoying. I just want you to acknowledge me and be thinking about me. You think about breaking up with me when I complain and I think about breaking up with you when you dont talk to me. and i tried not to complain but then its not fair. Because then your pleased and im not. I dont understand why you dont wanna change when you know im upset. i dont understand. but then when were together its amazing so i dont want to have these thoughts of breaking up with you because thats truly not what i want. we have to think about communication thought now because if i move how is are relationship going to last. youll barely see me AND since you dont communicate with me now, I'm guessing your not then. so im honestly very worried and stressed about that. i love you. i just want you to act like a boyfriend to me and you havent been really. although going to pf changs was alot of fun the other night. but i feels so distance from you and i dont want to feel that. i hope things get better because i really think your in my life for a reason.
soon today was your birthday and i didn't see you. i feel like i failed as a girlfriend. i really do. i just want you to know tha ti love you more than life. and im gunna make it up to you. actually i think my present will do that for me. i have to go to bed , ill see you tomorrow love. your the best thing to ever ever happen to me . i got really sad when i saw your fam birthday pics on facebook. wish i were in them. :( so sad. ugh so so so sad i cant stand it. i miss you sexxy.